Although I am still in a spiritual battle for my life, I am reminded by past thoughts/events, that being a 'good soldier' is what has enabled me to stay afloat within this raging sea, that has not yet calmed where the lights that dance atop the water, can be seen without disturbance.
So, onward and through!

Stopping by Colo's blog tonight has brought back a 'memory.'
Thanks Colo!

After posting "My Truths" back in January, I got to know some of you in a way in which I will remain grateful.
Your comments/honesty touched my heart.
Sometimes it takes a journey to the DarkSide and that slightest feathered back-step, and a heightened awareness allowing one to see, to appreciate the shadows. And even the shadows can be colorful.
When left in them long enough, we start to create our own sheltered environment, all the time knowing what is to come.
A preparation, of sorts.

Colo's comment to "My Truths"...

"Dear Solid...You sound like a strong and amazing woman...demons within and imaginary friends all around...angels watching over you...I love your truths and hear your voice...strong women have always shown me the way...Thank You Colo"

My response to Colo's comment...

"Dear Colo...By embracing my demons I've found they are not as difficult to deal with. They are NOT going away...but I've learned how to fall into my safety net by distancing them. Yes! I've had to learn how to fall. At times, I know I'm going down, so I'm a 'good soldier', always ready for battle. I don't know how to give up. And I don't know how to quit. These things are just NOT ME!
So, demons, my little buddies and my darling angels, and another day I must face praying to find my moments of peace, amidst this jungle.
We learn from each other in life, don't you think? We are who we are and love ourselves, we must. You not only *hear* me Colo...you *see* me! Thank You......and Peace to you my friend."

After your post "Embracing My Demons"...my response to your poem that truly touched on many truths concerning my struggles:

"Once again I stand in awe of you. I write this with tears falling...it is comforting having someone entering my darkest spaces, where I always find solace. So Seductive...the anticipation of their arrival. All of them. and you captured them beautifully Colo! We are all ONE. Struggling, dancing, seeking, screaming...but always in harmony, always watching and always waiting...Peaceful moment buried in today"...It is in these mere moments where I sink deeper and deeper in places in my soul that I have visited and survived. And it is in these mere moments that I feel so incredibly grateful, also.
In them, a return to the other side, even though everything I am tells me I have to 'rest in it'. allow it to consume me, before I am to become 'one' with it.
The finale...I am lovingly and gently lifted to a place where peace lives.
I recognized you too Colo...From The Beginning.
My Heart and much Peace to you..."

Thank you for posting the poem once again. Except for the last verse, it is the same beautiful poem you wrote describing how 'you' perceived it and understood it.
I was touched then by your insight, and I remain touched, and thankful.

I will continue to "Embrace My Demons" and by doing so, in an odd sort of way, we will all remain friends!

Everything is the same. I exist surrounded by depths of darkness with always just...a glimmer of light!

Peace My Friend...Solid

...and although my belief system is intact, my path is not set in stone. I would never want to think that I could stagnate my thought process and in doing so, prevent an opportunity to *see*, to *understand* or to *find* and pursue a vehicle for reaching a higher plateau/that pristine world I yearn to become one with, and so I continue on with my journey.



DISCOVER THE POWER OF FORGIVENESS

"Where there's no past and no future...
and everyone is a relative."

"In this place, there are no alcoholics, only people who may or may not choose to drink on any given day. There is no such thing as a pattern of addiction because the past and the future are alien concepts that don't apply here. In this place, there is no group therapy, only "talking circles"; there are no doctors or patients, only medicine men and women and their relatives, connected to each other by blood, clan, or spirit."

-this was a featured article in Spirituality as an antidote for addiction, describing the Na'nizhoozhi Center in Gallup, New Mexico.



HEAR YOUR AUTHENTIC VOICE, YOUR SELF.

Little things can change...everything.
Like the power of silence and finding your authentic voice in a busy world. Like the pleasure of rebirth in water whether it's a swim in the sea or a soak in a warm bath.
Like the primordial sounds that spark our primitive nature.
"The human voice carries something in it's vibration that makes it more powerful than any musical instrument - consciousness."

-from Sound Healing



FIND THE SACRED IN THE SCIENCE OF LIFE.

"Creationists charge evolutionary biologists with 'worshipping at the church of Darwin.'
They intend that as an insult. But we can find the sacred in the science of life as well as in more traditional places."

-from Inside the Mind of God

Just as in the present...We are the result of every choice we have made throughout our lifetime, and I truly believe this; our belief system is also the result of not only choices that either we have made, or others have made for us; the nature of it also is obtained from our own life experiences. Lessons that haven't been taught. Books that haven't been read. Nothing learned by the physical.
What is felt and what grows in our hearts is so much more profound and everlasting, and allows us to keep both our hearts and minds open to New Beginnings.
And, around each corner lies a New Beginning for us all.
I firmly believe that the light from a flickering candle will only continue to burn as bright as the passion and determination we possess to deepen our desire, the strong desire we need to assure the light always remains. And with the belief that we, will always remain.

-Solid

How many times have we looked up to the sky, with thoughts of Heaven, or whatever one believes the "other side" to be?
I've always believed that *Heaven* or that *other place* is at arms reach.
But since we're living in the physical, we can neither see it and most times, would just find it hard to fathom it's existence.
I have been gifted since a small child to see visions. Hear conversations, taking place in other countries, at times.
I've watched, on more than one occassion, someone going about their day, as if I were watching a DVD that was sent to me.
I've gotten used to it over the years. I honestly cannot say
I welcome every vision. Some are absolutely horrifying.
But, it's what I have been given. I believe from my Higher Power.
I have been instructed (when the visions got out of control, how to *control* what I see and what I don't see)
And I passed the offer. Because what I was given I believe is a gift and one to be cherished!

When I feel a strong need to snap a picture in a place where nothing exists, not all the time, but nevertheless, I always go with my feelings.

These pictures I am posting were taken with the same urge, no planning.
I have 7 cameras and 3 video recorders, and the reason being, I eliminate any chance of coincidence; dust on a lens; a reflection and lighting issues.
I take this very seriously and am practical enough where I don't see a
particle of dust and turn it into a supernatural event.
I guess I will compare it to my Faith. I can't see it
but I feel it, it is a part of me. It's real. For some years now, I've been trying to make contact with those who have crossed over. I opened a door and when I did, it allowed for anything to enter. Both good and evil. We don't get to pick and choose what will enter. The risk for me, is worth it.

The 3 pictures are of, I believe ones who have crossed over or maybe even searching their way to find the light.

They were taken at the same time with several different cameras. I don't like to use flash when I'm trying to ensure that there will be no reflection, dust...just clear pictures exposing the ones who are lingering in our present.


This first picture was taken at a carnival. My granddaughter was on a slide and I felt a strong need to start shooting. This is very common as I have well over 200 pictures of her with apparitions surrounding her. 4 seperate cameras took the same shot.
I believe there was more than one spirit. Most of the time, orbs are also surrounding her. No One else.
I can see a face in the center of the picture.
This is her again riding her bike and the apparition followed her.

This last picture is complicated. Above her head, there is a horse fence with nothing on it. This particular apparition followed her down the driveway and around to the fence. 4 different cameras also used.
What was unusual, more so than any other time, was the fact that for the first time, I could see the appariiton in motion.
Truly, a supernatural experience!
When I uploaded the pictures from the cameras, I noticed that on the horse fence seemed to be 2 human faces. One I should say is objectionable. It looks more like an animal of some sort. But the other figure looks like a woman.
This was the first time; and the meaning I derive from this, is these spirits were here for a reason. The reason I do not know.
The fact that I was privy to viewing them is also a mystery and may remain one.

The *other side* is another dimension in my opinion, and from what I have experienced and that is all I can go by.

Now I lay me down to sleep and wonder with excitement and curiosity, what tomorrow will bring.

Take Special Care...Solid

I've been doing a lot of soul searching. Thinking that those crossroads wouldn't be coming up so fast, so often. But, not so. They are slamming me!!! Too many decisions, not enough life. Or maybe, not enough time.

I was polishing the brass on my fireplace and realized that very soon the silk flowers would need to be placed back on the corner wall.
And I sighed.


I sit at night and gaze at the images on the walls, ceiling, created by the flickering candle light. What a display. And I wonder.
Like every moment, no two are the same. Maybe I'm tired of change. Maybe I'm just tired.



Still searching. A fire that burns through to my soul as my eyes catch a glimpse of what is to come. They are fixed and waiting.


I travel into darkness; back into the light. There is always light!
The journey I am on seems much different than in times past. I seek out pieces of peace and grasp tightly; holding them close to my heart and pray that the next time the moment will be longer, contain substance, and allow me to feel.
Depths of darkness felt like never before. Feeling the emptiness from the pain of losing my son. It seems as if the hole in my heart is getting bigger.
This time of night/morning, when everyone is asleep and I am not being called upon as this is their time to rest and I am grateful for that, for them and for me; it is also my time to reflect on the day's events and do feel saddened by the way Dad is drifting away into a world all his own, with no room for anyone else but at the same time thankful that he feels my love for him and most of the time, knows me.
It is also the time that I can talk to, write to and cry to, others.
I cherish the quiet time but always knowing that the dawn is but a blink away......

Can it be
is it so
this sleepiness
I love it so.
It's like a blanket warming me
keeping me, hiding me.
Oh go away
the light does burn
it never filters the evil
hidden within walls
walls that covet my energy
lying in wait.
Only time will bring the darkness
where no one can see
and all that's bad
will cease to be.
For, only light can make you see
how tragic this world can be.
So, bring me to you
keep me warm
hidden and safe
for soon I must face
the coming dawn.


So, as I lay me down to sleep and pray the Lord my soul to keep, I safely place my heart down, sheltered, temporarily, from the elements; the ones inside and out.
Where once was a rose is now a pedal. I will await new growth.



Love, the only constant.

Thought I'd pop in and say hello and to let you know I think of you all and hope everyone is well.
I (literally) sneeked on here, found a little free time, and that is not easy to find lately...LOL!!!

I read a few blogs and plan on reading more, when time permits.

Rosie, I just loved your THANK YOU post! Beautiful, as you are, and very talented!
Thanks for always stopping by to say Hi! I appreciate it.

Colo, thoughts of Hunter, so sweet and very touching. As I'm a firm believer that LOVE is the only reason we are here.
It is the foundation in which we begin...everything, and continue to build our lives around...our lives because of.

Jonnie, your pictures are beautiful as ever. They are always a treat for a weary eye!

Scratch, I believe too, that the lure of the unknown can (and does) lead to other worlds. Beautiful pictures. They softened a rugged thought floating around looking to be soothed. Thanks!

It was nice to come back and see so many familiar blogs. I noticed a few are no longer active. But, for the most part, the old gang is still intact...LOL!!! Which was nice to see.

I kept my last post up Rosie, because I didn't know if deleting all of them would also delete my account. I've never been too keen on this blogging thing!
I had left for awhile as life for me is very hectic. I'm extremely busy, and wanted to keep my account open so I could return to visit when I had the time. I didn't want to deactivate, so if anyone wanted to stop by and leave a message, they would be able to do so.

Closing for now, but again, would like to say Hi to all and your blogs and pictures are as beautiful as ever.

I'll try and pop in tonight. I've missed the interaction here. We had some fun times!!! I know they'll be back.

Bye for now and please take Very Special Care...
My Love to you all...Solid